I have been so neglectful of my blog. I am seriously annoyed with myself that I can't stay motivated to do anything on a regular basis. Not exercise, not write, not count calories, not anything! However, the one thing I have been lately is happy. Despite the fact I'm still 100 pounds heavier than I want to be on my wedding day, and my wedding is 6 months and 8 days away - despite the fact my house is a complete disaster as we are trying to paint the walls in our house - despite the fact I am busier than ever and have very little time to enjoy my family, friends, and fiance... I am so very happy. Perhaps this will mean I will exercise more. Eat healthier. Write more. Work harder. Enjoy life more. I think, maybe, my happiness will mean that. Then again, maybe it won't. Either way - I. Am. Happy.
My wedding plans are all falling together just perfectly. I am content. I am not crying, I am not wishing things were different, I am not stressed (well, I am, but that's because of my upcoming dance recitals - not because of life itself). I am just happy. And content. I know I already said content, but it is such a difficult thing to be, so I feel just truly blessed that I can be content. I have realized that I have made a lot of wrong decisions in my life, but when it comes to the important things, I have done things right (for the most part). My timing with finding the love of my life, graduating, finding a job, buying a house, getting married... Everything just seems... Right. And because of these decisions I know all the things that may cause me stress or worry, don't really matter in the end. Why? Because I have the love of my life, a place to call home, wonderful friends, a loving and supportive family, a secure job (more than one!), my faith, my body, my life... So, it's all good.
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